From Beginning to End
The White World
a universe of white that extends outward in every direction. This single white is endless and beginningless. It is
everywhere. Wherever the universe is, there is a total and complete whiteness. And so also imagine you are the white,
because the white is simply all there is. This is not a place that can be viewed from elsewhere. There is no other
place. There is nothing else. You and the white are inseparably one.
In this world you are like a living child
in the womb before knowing differentiation of any kind. All that you know is the unbounded oneness of your being. The
whiteness of your consciousness, which is being itself, is everywhere and everything. Without beginning or ending, for
you time is one enormous moment of now. So you know nothing of change. You know nothing of time. You simply exist. You
have always existed. Your consciousness and your being are the same thing.
white world is all that you are and have ever known. And although your being is powerfully real you are absolutely blind
to that same whiteness, because in an undifferentiated world there is no way for you to appreciate the single most
fundamental property of yourself. You are blind to white because there isn’t an absence of white to differentiate your
being against. You have nothing to reference the white with. Consequently, you feel yourself to be both everything and
nothing simultaneously. You are a something that is everything, and an everything that is nothing. Such is the only
broken symmetry in your perfect whiteness, and in that broken symmetry, in the confusion of your true identity, exists
the birth of difference.
it has been forever that you are the white, and it certainly seems as if it will always be so, except suddenly, for some
unknown reason, as if a door opened that you didn’t know even existed, suddenly in a flash the timeless uniformity of
white shatters. Almost immediately the whiteness is replaced by a rainbow of colors, so that there is red and blue and
yellow, and green and orange and purple, which now illuminate the diversity of your being. Within this change or
differentiation, or what we might call time, the broken symmetry splits you into two states of consciousness. In each a
world begins. In each an expanded sense of existence or consciousness begins, and in each you begin to awaken from your
deep silent sleep.
one of two worlds you originate only seeing yourself as everything, different from another world where you only see
yourself as nothing, and although you exist forever in each moment you are also beginning to wake up in each world. This
sudden awakening gives birth to colors which interact in an initially inexplicable dance to illuminate a surprising
number of properties and attributes that can be formed of each side. In this differentiation the oneness of each side
divides and you become many. All this differentiation, all this form is overwhelming. You never knew your whiteness so
you can’t help but begin to identify with all this form, as now you have something to identify with. The variety of
form is so great that soon you know yourself only as color and form. Differences become your reality. Also since there
is now change, there is a sense of difference between one moment and the next, and so a sense of time, and consequently
that time takes the place of your timeless existence as if you’ve never experienced it.
it seems an odd relationship which these parts have with each other, within time. In one sense the colors combine
together to create the white, and yet the white divides apart to create the colors. There is a sort of complementarity,
which is to say these two aspects of your reality are interdependent and inseparably connected, which is why when one of
the primary colors is taken away from the others, what is left behind in its place produces a green, or an orange, or a
purple. Eventually it becomes clear to you that in the variety of colors you are only experiencing lesser parts of
yourself, parts that are fragments of the whole. The parts create the whole. The whole creates the parts. No part of you
is really separate at all.
immense measures of time you are given the opportunity to discover yourself, and slowly and meticulously as you discover
the more unified colors of orange, purple, and green, and you begin to see the flow of various forms, after awhile you
gradually begin to realize the relationship all these colors and forms have. You begin to realize they all exist within
an original white, so you begin to realize you are the white, and that you have always been the white, and you realize
all the colors and forms were there in the beginning, they were within you all along. And each side of you is beginning
to experience this same lesson, which makes your two selves more and more alike. And finally you realize you are
becoming the white world again.
your two sides merge, you begin to see yourself as the white world refracted into a rainbow of colors. You begin to hear
yourself as a perfect silence that is divided into a symphony of sound. You begin to feel the ensemble of all possible
universes within you enfolding into the eternal white world. Eventually you begin to see clearly the two great forces
within yourself. One force that divides your self into parts, creating real and yet illusory material things, as well as
all the numbers and all the meaningful ideas, that create the finite side of yourself. Then there is another force that
works to combine together all those many parts, the spectrum of colors, and the diversity of infinite many lives and
experiences, into the single unified white world. There is still no other color than white, because all the colors are
internal, all form is merely fragments of the great timeless white world.
the end we all see ourselves as the great dance that begins with the colors divided apart and ends with the colors
combined together, and then we will also know the dance only seems to have a beginning and an ending, a birth and a
death, when in fact this story and the sense of time it portrays are only shifts in perspective between the timelessness
of the mother and the birth and experience of the child.
you become ever more fully aware of your whole self, you realize the being of the whole is actualized in being each
part. You realize the ‘everything’ you thought you were is just a ‘something’ part of a greater Universe. You realize
the ‘nothing’ you thought you were, is as relevant as the ‘everything’ you thought you were. Eventually all the
boundaries of separation erode, and as you become the sum, all your pronounced experiences in time are balanced and
given meaning by the fullness of the whole. You even feel yourself in the future shaping those experiences in the past
to become the great completeness. In a final step you move from semi-consciousness to full consciousness. And you become
the beginning, the evolution of all life, and the end, existing all in the one enormous moment of now, where you know
yourself for the first time forever.
page is chapter 26 from the book Everything Forever.
(On the web)
Part l The Beginning of Timelessness
Ch1 Time is Imaginary
Ch2 Why the Universe Exists Timelessly
Ch3 The Great Cosmic Boundaries
Ch4 Describing the Realm of All Possibilities
Ch5 Caught Between Two Kinds of Order
Part II The Governing Dynamics
Ch6 Natural Order *
Ch7 Enfolded Symmetry *
Ch8 Beautiful Diversity *
Ch9 Something from Nothing?
Part III The Comprehensibility Of All
Ch10 Infinity Means What?
10.1 A Branching Out of Many-Worlds
10.2 The Multiverse
10.3 Many Realms
10.4 Absolute Chaos
Ch11 Time is a Direction in Space
Part IV The Great Cosmic Attractor
Ch12 The Shape of All Conceivables
Ch13 Everything Moves Towards Balance
Ch14 Equilibrium *
Ch15 Convergence *
Ch16 The Big Bloom
Part V The Second Law is Too Simple
Ch17 Away from Order toward Order
Ch18 Multiple Arrows of Time *
Ch19 A Matter of Space
Ch20 Built in From the Beginning *
Part VI Cosmic Psyche
Ch21 God’s Math *
Ch22 Proto and Elea *
Ch23 Our Basic Natures
Ch24 Cosmic Lovers
Part VII Spiritual Science
Ch25 Becoming Aware
Ch26 The White World
Ch27 God, Infinity, and Nature As One
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